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Mm. I came on this thing to do Economics homework. I looked at the first question. I had no idea how to answer it. So I started reading LJ. Now, I've got that character that I wasted quite a while writing a history for polished off and sent, which is only going to make matters worse, but no Economics homework (or indeed homework of any kind).
You know how teenagers traditionally get, around 13-15 years of age, when they don't want to go to school and don't want to do this or that and just moop around the house all day complaining loudly that they're bored? Well, that's me, now. This is not the right time to hit this particular phase, you stupid delayed development rubbish! I have, like, exams to do and homework that's actually difficult and stuff. But I can't settle to anything, I can't *do* anything even when I try to start it. It's Wednesday already and I haven't done a scrap of the massive amount of homework I've got for half-term. And I've replied to the grand total of one email. Wah.
Of course, I should 'just get on with it', but it's not as if I don't keep trying to start; I just sit there and look at a blank page/screen and my brain goes completely and utterly blank, and I feel like crying. Stupid work. Stupid brain.
You know how teenagers traditionally get, around 13-15 years of age, when they don't want to go to school and don't want to do this or that and just moop around the house all day complaining loudly that they're bored? Well, that's me, now. This is not the right time to hit this particular phase, you stupid delayed development rubbish! I have, like, exams to do and homework that's actually difficult and stuff. But I can't settle to anything, I can't *do* anything even when I try to start it. It's Wednesday already and I haven't done a scrap of the massive amount of homework I've got for half-term. And I've replied to the grand total of one email. Wah.
Of course, I should 'just get on with it', but it's not as if I don't keep trying to start; I just sit there and look at a blank page/screen and my brain goes completely and utterly blank, and I feel like crying. Stupid work. Stupid brain.
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Hmmmm
Date: 2003-02-19 04:00 am (UTC)From:Thats how ive felt since i left first school and was expected to do real work.
Somehow i managed to get things done.
But that feeling where your sitting there at 1am and havent done anything. is bad. You feel hot inside and cold outside and then you start to sweat and panic sets in.
And then you feel that you would rather do anythig but the real work not to feel like this.
That is why i handed all my corce work in on the last day of term.
This is why i only got passes.
This is bad.
If you felt at all like this i know how you felt.
One day it will be all over and you will have a job you like. you can sit back relax and at 5-7pm you can go home and do what you like. Sleep mostly and have a calm mind. safe in the thort that tommorrow you will be doing something you can do fairly easily.
Hope that has helped in some way.
Re: Hmmmm
Date: 2003-02-19 04:02 am (UTC)From:Sheesh, where are the jobs like that? I want one!
Re: Hmmmm
Date: 2003-02-19 04:27 am (UTC)From:Lol. i aint got one but i know where they are. work ina uni. The pay wont be as good as in industry but its alot more fun and if you stay there you will end up in a position where you have to do very little taxing work for a nice pay check.
What job do you do?
Re: Hmmmm
Date: 2003-02-19 04:30 am (UTC)From:Some people say it's actually tougher to survive in university than in industry; I wouldn't know, because I've only worked in industry. Work in a uni isn't easy to come by, besides.
Re: Hmmmm
Date: 2003-02-19 04:33 am (UTC)From:I worked as a technician at a uni and i lost that job.
Your right but there is more preasure in industry and that leads to stress related mind blows.
What do you program in? is there anythign you have coded that i could play with?
Re: Hmmmm
Date: 2003-02-19 04:52 am (UTC)From:Nothing I've written for pay is available (to anyone, including me any more), but there's plenty I've written for amusement:
http://marnanel.org/joule/
http://rgtp.thurman.org.uk/yarrow/
http://archangel.mozdev.org
http://rgtp.thurman.org.uk/spurge/
http://www.wurb.com/if/game/339 (unlikely to work these days)
http://www.wurb.com/if/game/338 (likewise)
http://gnusto.mozdev.org
http://www.squirrelmail.org/plugin_view.php?id=57 (not much supported now)
Re: Hmmmm
Date: 2003-02-19 06:42 am (UTC)From:Very nice but a little beyound me. You do realise that he first link you put there gives only this
"Nope, don't have one of those."
Ive done the smallest amount of proramming you can do in c and found it very stress full. I liked it in the good old days of basic. i could get my hed round the simple bits of that. i could do alot with basic excluding grafix and file handleing. But good old DOS batch programing was the best for me. My 486DX2 66 played the x files theam when it booted up on the pc speaker ;-)
And sorry chess that this has once again moved away from your topic. If i knew how to work (marnanel)'s LJ then i would prolly talk about this there.
Re: Hmmmm
Date: 2003-02-19 07:35 am (UTC)From:If you liked Basic but not C, try Python-- it's easy to learn, interactive like Basic but far more structured, and there are versions for all major operating systems.
Re: Hmmmm
Date: 2003-02-19 07:46 am (UTC)From:Re: Hmmmm
Date: 2003-02-19 08:09 am (UTC)From:Re: Hmmmm
Date: 2003-02-19 08:22 am (UTC)From:(If you set up a LJ of your own, you could see Chess's and mine and anyone else's you liked, all in the same format on your friends page.)
Re: Hmmmm
Date: 2003-02-19 08:24 am (UTC)From:Lol. i have but dont post much. And ive forgotton how to add friends since i only have 2 and they were don ages ago. When and if i see chess on msn again ill get her to remind me.
Re: Hmmmm
Date: 2003-02-19 03:11 pm (UTC)From:Under the second heading (Settings) there's a link "You Friends". Click on that, and follow the instructions it gives.
HTH,
Neil
Re: Hmmmm
Date: 2003-02-19 03:54 pm (UTC)From:Thanks mate. I saw chess online and she explained it befor i got this.
I added you and will pay close attention to your interesting computer and fun related posts ;-)
Re: Hmmmm
Date: 2003-02-19 04:01 pm (UTC)From:Got confused. I added marnanel not you.
And yup i got an account ;-)
My pic is cut from a bigger picture of me on my 2nd bike.
Re: Hmmmm
Date: 2003-02-19 12:55 pm (UTC)From:Re: Hmmmm
Date: 2003-02-19 01:12 pm (UTC)From:(I did write it in lynx, but I should have seen even so.)