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Mm. I came on this thing to do Economics homework. I looked at the first question. I had no idea how to answer it. So I started reading LJ. Now, I've got that character that I wasted quite a while writing a history for polished off and sent, which is only going to make matters worse, but no Economics homework (or indeed homework of any kind).

You know how teenagers traditionally get, around 13-15 years of age, when they don't want to go to school and don't want to do this or that and just moop around the house all day complaining loudly that they're bored? Well, that's me, now. This is not the right time to hit this particular phase, you stupid delayed development rubbish! I have, like, exams to do and homework that's actually difficult and stuff. But I can't settle to anything, I can't *do* anything even when I try to start it. It's Wednesday already and I haven't done a scrap of the massive amount of homework I've got for half-term. And I've replied to the grand total of one email. Wah.

Of course, I should 'just get on with it', but it's not as if I don't keep trying to start; I just sit there and look at a blank page/screen and my brain goes completely and utterly blank, and I feel like crying. Stupid work. Stupid brain.

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[dr-vannacutt.livejournal.com]

Thats how ive felt since i left first school and was expected to do real work.

Somehow i managed to get things done.

But that feeling where your sitting there at 1am and havent done anything. is bad. You feel hot inside and cold outside and then you start to sweat and panic sets in.

And then you feel that you would rather do anythig but the real work not to feel like this.

That is why i handed all my corce work in on the last day of term.

This is why i only got passes.

This is bad.

If you felt at all like this i know how you felt.

One day it will be all over and you will have a job you like. you can sit back relax and at 5-7pm you can go home and do what you like. Sleep mostly and have a calm mind. safe in the thort that tommorrow you will be doing something you can do fairly easily.

Hope that has helped in some way.