Right. I've had twelve hours sleep and washed my hair, so technically I should be feeling better about now. Instead, it looks like I've managed to be depressed for no good reason. This annoys me, because it means I have no idea what to do to stop being depressed. I didn't know whether to bother posting or not, because I don't want to encourage other people to whine, I don't like whining, and I know how annoying it is when people whine about being depressed and can't tell you why, because of there being nothing you can do about it. Still, I thought people had ought to know that I'm not wandering around looking miserable and irritated through any fault of theirs.
It doesn't help that I feel that everything would be much improved were I to be suddenly and unexpectedly dead about now.
Gah. I feel kind of selfish actually posting this rubbish, but I may as well. Oh, and I discovered I *do* have a maths supervision today, and one of the questions I can't get online, and the one I can doesn't look very answerable, and I need the Probability notes that aren't online to answer my CS supervision question. Unsurprisingly, none of this has helped much.
Mostly, I feel helpless and incapable of doing anything right; people need more of me than I have to give.
It doesn't help that I feel that everything would be much improved were I to be suddenly and unexpectedly dead about now.
Gah. I feel kind of selfish actually posting this rubbish, but I may as well. Oh, and I discovered I *do* have a maths supervision today, and one of the questions I can't get online, and the one I can doesn't look very answerable, and I need the Probability notes that aren't online to answer my CS supervision question. Unsurprisingly, none of this has helped much.
Mostly, I feel helpless and incapable of doing anything right; people need more of me than I have to give.
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Date: 2004-03-01 04:09 am (UTC)From:I know it's usless advice, but try to be comforted :)
*hugs*
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Date: 2004-03-01 04:14 am (UTC)From:Please imagine I've commented all the things that I would have commented but you already know because I've said them before.
For some reason Cambridge leads to quite a lot of depression and angst. I think it's the water.
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Date: 2004-03-01 05:16 am (UTC)From:I don't know what level your Probability course is aimed at, but the Maths IB Statistics notes that are available on the web might help (or they might not).
http://www.statslab.cam.ac.uk/~rrw1/stats/#notes
;-)
Date: 2004-03-01 05:20 am (UTC)From:And thanks, i tend to blame my self when my friends are down and end up getting shouted at for it.
Also "maths supervision" is better then "a meths problem" as i first read it without using my eyes propperly. ;-)
And this is me being selfish but if you were dead there would be a hole in my life. And i feel that you would also leave a hole in the world.
And yes i have logged in at work to post this for you ;-)