Ramblings

[chess]

I am currently feeling wretchedly girly, because I am unhappy about being fat.

Not only am I unhappy about being fat, I don't have the first idea about what to do about it. Most days I'm walking for at least an hour, maybe two; I don't think I'm eating excessively large amounts of food; and I won't have time in term time even to do the walking that I'm doing at the moment.

I'm tempted to just get a new set of clothes (because I think that once 'clothes not fitting' stops reminding me continually that I'm fat, I might forget about it) and try and ignore it. But I'm not sure it is just the clothes; carrying more weight makes me feel different (I have nasty rolly bits which stick together).

I kind of lost at Sunday; I didn't get up in time for church, and then I got ill again in the evening. In the meantime I tidied my room and packed for Malestrom, which I also failed at because I couldn't find half the lammies I was looking for.

Work isn't too bad at the moment (which is good because I'm doing a lot of it in preparation for leaving early on Friday); I've finally actually got a reasonable project to be working on, and the temperature has gone down a bit.

After work today, walking home, I was ambushed by Bryony and Flying_O, who were wearing loud shirts. I think I might scream too easily at the moment because I screamed when they said "Boo" from behind me. We then talked about snakey things. Snakes are fun. Yay for Snakey Maelstrom.

Eventually I got in; shortly thereafter there was a Tom who talked about Piraty Maelstrom, which doesn't seem half so fun. Silly piratey people.

tienelle is doing lots of sewing at the moment, which means he is doing a lot of yelling at the sewing machine. It is cute. Edith is scared. I even have kit for the character I plan to play if I get stabbed up at this event, so I am not doing any sewing, although now I need to make crazy plans involving string to deal with the oddly-shaped daggers I shall be acquiring.

Comments

[icantcarenemore.livejournal.com]

If you're not eating excessively, but still come into the overweight range, one of the best things you can do is find a form of exercise that either becomes a part of your daily routine or you enjoy enough to go out of your way to participate in. When I started cycling regularly, I lost a considerable amount of weight quite quickly.
I'm not going any further into that story.

Also; generic sympathy/support vibes being sent your way.

[chess]

I tried that with walking around (I can't cycle, so cycling doesn't work) but it doesn't actually appear to work any more, so 'exercise as part of daily routine' doesn't work. And all my 'free time' is already solidly booked for next term.

[joysilence.livejournal.com]

Regarding the fatness/exercise thing, if the problem isn't hormonal, and walking doesn't help, perhaps you could do some aerobic exercise instead, or as well? There are scientific reasons why walking is nowhere near as good for weight loss as cardio, though I can't remember what they are offhand. Certainly when I was fat I used to walk a lot and it made no difference, but as soon as I started doing even 15 mins a day of aerobics the weight came falling off. If you find yourself too knackered at the end of the day to go in for Jane Fonda antics you might find some yoga more bearable (especially the standing poses.)

Anyway don't worry about being girly, I know loads of blokes who are worried about their weight!

[dreema.livejournal.com]

*raises hand*

[icantcarenemore.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah, remaining at a healthy weight is just as much of a problem for males as it is for females. I personally think it's because there is fat in nearly all of the food available from stores and we don't have to run after our prey ;)

[cartesiandaemon.livejournal.com]

Anyway don't worry about being girly, I know loads of blokes who are worried about their weight!

Uh-huh. I *am* Bridget Jones :)

[(Anonymous)]

I was once ambushed by Bryony and Flying_O. It was an odd experience!
Abner
Jonathan

[marble.livejournal.com]

You're welcome to come round for more dancemat tekken!

[cartesiandaemon.livejournal.com]

*hug*

It *sounds* like you're doing everything right. Are you doing anything different/less to before? You haven't like got fit enough walking doesn't help or something?

(maelfroth)

[(Anonymous)]

Hehe you scream good :)
Snakey dryads seem to be good at screaming. Snakes am win. I don't know what those useless pirates are up to either, why don't they just all die and join us.

Hmm. All die. A plan... bwahahaha!

[naath.livejournal.com]

Stop eating lunch. At least that's the only way I could persuade me to lose weight (and now I have put it all back on by slobbing arround and eating chocalte because Essex is *boring*).

[requiem-17-23.livejournal.com]

The only way I've reliably found to lose weight is to cut fat out of my diet as much as I possibly could (i.e. no cheese, no chocolate, no salami).

And exercise that gets you out of breath is very much better for you, for reasons of Biology what I don't understand. It's possible to walk enough to get out of breath, but running (gah) or swimming or suchlike are better. Also, an hour's exercise >> 45 minutes' exercise >> anything less in terms of how good it is for you.

my two pennorth

[omniscient-fool.livejournal.com]

just a suggestion - given that you are going into a year of big time stress, maybe you'd be better off not messing around with your diet too much, and certainly not cutting intake. Joysilence is right about excercise/walking (unfortunately), and I would second the suggestion of yoga. It's not as lame as it sounds but it does all the good things (toning, burning etc) without feeling nasty. It will also make you feel a lot less stressed and refresh your mind so less guilt about taking 1.5 hrs off a week for it. Also, you can get a dvd and do it in your room if you don't want to assume various undignified positions in a room full of Others.

and btw, I know the important thing is how you see yourself, but for what it's worth, last time I saw you you weren't looking at all fat :)