Ramblings

[chess]

I am currently feeling wretchedly girly, because I am unhappy about being fat.

Not only am I unhappy about being fat, I don't have the first idea about what to do about it. Most days I'm walking for at least an hour, maybe two; I don't think I'm eating excessively large amounts of food; and I won't have time in term time even to do the walking that I'm doing at the moment.

I'm tempted to just get a new set of clothes (because I think that once 'clothes not fitting' stops reminding me continually that I'm fat, I might forget about it) and try and ignore it. But I'm not sure it is just the clothes; carrying more weight makes me feel different (I have nasty rolly bits which stick together).

I kind of lost at Sunday; I didn't get up in time for church, and then I got ill again in the evening. In the meantime I tidied my room and packed for Malestrom, which I also failed at because I couldn't find half the lammies I was looking for.

Work isn't too bad at the moment (which is good because I'm doing a lot of it in preparation for leaving early on Friday); I've finally actually got a reasonable project to be working on, and the temperature has gone down a bit.

After work today, walking home, I was ambushed by Bryony and Flying_O, who were wearing loud shirts. I think I might scream too easily at the moment because I screamed when they said "Boo" from behind me. We then talked about snakey things. Snakes are fun. Yay for Snakey Maelstrom.

Eventually I got in; shortly thereafter there was a Tom who talked about Piraty Maelstrom, which doesn't seem half so fun. Silly piratey people.

tienelle is doing lots of sewing at the moment, which means he is doing a lot of yelling at the sewing machine. It is cute. Edith is scared. I even have kit for the character I plan to play if I get stabbed up at this event, so I am not doing any sewing, although now I need to make crazy plans involving string to deal with the oddly-shaped daggers I shall be acquiring.

Comments

[cartesiandaemon.livejournal.com]

*hug*

It *sounds* like you're doing everything right. Are you doing anything different/less to before? You haven't like got fit enough walking doesn't help or something?

(maelfroth)

[(Anonymous)]

Hehe you scream good :)
Snakey dryads seem to be good at screaming. Snakes am win. I don't know what those useless pirates are up to either, why don't they just all die and join us.

Hmm. All die. A plan... bwahahaha!