the silent voices are driving me crazy

[chess]

So.

This past couple of weeks I have done lots of scary things that I didn't think I was capable of doing. Fortunately God is faithful and my desperate prayers of 'what am I getting into, let this not go wrong' seem to have been answered; I spoke to a lot of random people at their doorsteps and mostly they were, y'know, people, not some kind of terrible stranger-monster.

I even coped remarkably well with the bit where I ended up attempting to 'knock up' (the process of knocking on the door of people you canvassed as supporters on election day to get them to actually come out and vote for your party) the Cambridge Socialists campaign HQ...

Now I have the stress comedown from hell and it looks like we have won the local battle only to find the party stranded in a crazy wasteland strewn liberally with broken glass and minefields.

I have a bad case of stress-comedown, a sense of creeping despair that I had only previously felt in character, and I've got to run a tavern night this evening, a linear tomorrow, and then drive down to Oxford to stay up all night in a wood trying to pretend I give a shit about Maelstrom stuff any more.

I can't even see my character's headspace from here.

Next weekend is a big event for a different character which I have been looking forwards to for ages, which I'm not convinced I'm going to be in any shape to enjoy either, or even do more than phone in on behalf of the other people who are showing up.

Is it just me, or are a lot of youngish MPs being elected this time?

I don't really feel disheartened, or defeated, or like I want to crawl back into my hole. Just kind of frustrated that I haven't been operating in the real world for a while, and maybe it could do with more of my attention...

(not that I'm any good at anything, of course, reminds the little voice telling me not to be so collossally arrogant)

Comments

[chess]

http://www.libdems.org.uk/in_your_area.aspx should get you the local party website where you can sign up for more information - most of the local parties seem to have one as there's a standard Lib Dem Local Party Website template they mostly use.

The signup form on your local party website should then get to the right person.

[beornwulf-saxon.livejournal.com]

I found https://www.libdems.org.uk/volunteer_sign_up.aspx on that site, and am doing so now. I like that you can sign up to do as much or as little help is feasible for you.

Also *hugs*

[chess]

as for the weekend, I'm worried that if I duck out on the planned festivities I'll feel bad about it later when I actually start to care about LARP stuff again, and also will probably just slump around at home being miserable instead.

OTOH, more sleep would be kind of nice, I have rather wrecked my sleep schedule this past two weeks.

[bouteillebleu.livejournal.com]

It sounds like it might be a good plan to miss this weekend's one so that you'll feel better for other things in upcoming weeks. If you can't get your character's headspace now then doing the player event anyway might just leave you feeling worse because of it, and this weekend of all weekends people will be understanding about you being knackered due to election stuff.

*offers hugs*

[nybiara.livejournal.com]

In Evan Harris's case, emailing him directly might actually be best. During the campaign he frequently used Twitter to ask people to email info@evanharris.org.uk with offers of help. He seems pretty good at coordinating people online.

[cyanidemigraine.livejournal.com]

*hugs* sorry to hear about stress come-down and i think your double plus awesome for knocking people up...

that didnt come out quite right


would it help if a very very nervous prince george got you utterly smashed on the friday? :)

seriously let larp come second to real life stuff, its there to recharge your batteries not drain them, if you wanna chat or talk about your A*A characters headspace drop me a mail or msn

[anotherusedpage.livejournal.com]

You did a good thing. Thankyou.

life skill

[douglas-reay.livejournal.com]

Roleplaying is a leasure activity, not a duty.

Don't force yourself to do it when you're not enjoying it, or you'll build up negative associations. Ask another ref to take over the linear, and have a relaxed weekend with no pressure, just to yourself.