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I am currently not reading LJ as obsessively as I feel I ought to be, not even the filter of People I Really Ought To Keep Up With, let alone the filter of People Whose LJs I Enjoy Reading Very Much And Hate To Miss Any Of Even Though I Do Not Feel The Same Deep Obligation To Read Their Entire Output.
Also, I am tired but having stolen keys off Nicholas I don't feel I can go to sleep. And he was going to be back by half past midnight. But he isn't, as you can see by my continued posting.
I am doing lots of exciting things, like work and being in Spain for a week with a conference and eating lots of foie gras because the company is paying for food (and it is suprisingly cheap in tapas places) and coming back much fatter. The chocolate croissants also didn't help. And LARP. I appear to have an entire section of plot, which I spent Friday evening frantically distributing, and then I ran around being a goblin in some mud today.
I keep having these desires to do things like run a RPG (current front-runner: Alchemical Exalted) or paint myself blue, but I never quite have the energy to actually do them. The online RPG I'm running has lapsed into 'well, not all the players have posted this turn yet' doldrums again, and I'm being the offending player on several of the ones I'm playing. I have over 5000 words of fanfiction written down in a blue exercise book (this is what happens when I do not have internets), which I started typing up, but haven't managed to summon the energy to finish typing up, mostly because I am going through one of those ALL MY WRITING IS LOUSY WAH stages.
This is also stopping me going to parties or attending RPGs held in other places than my house, because I can't get out of the house on weekday evenings after I have got home, with the occasional exception of Fridays because LARP is just about interesting enough to get me out of the house. I am not sure whether this is genuine exhaustion or depression.
In my ongoing catalog of Mental Issues, I have recently been experiencing a resurgence of Everyone Is Looking At Me And They Do Not Approve, and a general lack of ability to perform basic personal care and housework without large quantities of cajoling. (The latter kind of fuels the former, especially around females at work; I'm reasonably sure the male contingent of the office wouldn't notice if I showed up in orc paint, but the females do things like wear makeup and have clothes that co-ordinate, and I always feel deeply inferior with my Ebay ugly-bottle-green cords and my random three-year-old t-shirts (sometimes pink for extra COLOUR CLASHING) and my greasy hair, and I'm sure that I smell bad, and I'm not sure why I haven't been fired for bad personal hygeine yet like my mother always told me I would.)
Also, I am tired but having stolen keys off Nicholas I don't feel I can go to sleep. And he was going to be back by half past midnight. But he isn't, as you can see by my continued posting.
I am doing lots of exciting things, like work and being in Spain for a week with a conference and eating lots of foie gras because the company is paying for food (and it is suprisingly cheap in tapas places) and coming back much fatter. The chocolate croissants also didn't help. And LARP. I appear to have an entire section of plot, which I spent Friday evening frantically distributing, and then I ran around being a goblin in some mud today.
I keep having these desires to do things like run a RPG (current front-runner: Alchemical Exalted) or paint myself blue, but I never quite have the energy to actually do them. The online RPG I'm running has lapsed into 'well, not all the players have posted this turn yet' doldrums again, and I'm being the offending player on several of the ones I'm playing. I have over 5000 words of fanfiction written down in a blue exercise book (this is what happens when I do not have internets), which I started typing up, but haven't managed to summon the energy to finish typing up, mostly because I am going through one of those ALL MY WRITING IS LOUSY WAH stages.
This is also stopping me going to parties or attending RPGs held in other places than my house, because I can't get out of the house on weekday evenings after I have got home, with the occasional exception of Fridays because LARP is just about interesting enough to get me out of the house. I am not sure whether this is genuine exhaustion or depression.
In my ongoing catalog of Mental Issues, I have recently been experiencing a resurgence of Everyone Is Looking At Me And They Do Not Approve, and a general lack of ability to perform basic personal care and housework without large quantities of cajoling. (The latter kind of fuels the former, especially around females at work; I'm reasonably sure the male contingent of the office wouldn't notice if I showed up in orc paint, but the females do things like wear makeup and have clothes that co-ordinate, and I always feel deeply inferior with my Ebay ugly-bottle-green cords and my random three-year-old t-shirts (sometimes pink for extra COLOUR CLASHING) and my greasy hair, and I'm sure that I smell bad, and I'm not sure why I haven't been fired for bad personal hygeine yet like my mother always told me I would.)
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Date: 2006-11-19 01:54 am (UTC)From:2) I know someone who's been warned twice about poor personal hygiene at work. Both time they were apparently quite nice about it, but my main point is that it's not going to get you randomly fired out of the blue.
c) Depression gets better through doing stuff. Fake that you're OK, and do some of the things you should really be doing & suddenly you'll feel a lot better. I know it's hard, but it really does help.
4) The tired after work can either be depression, or a general lack of fitness. Maybe even a mix of both?
Right, apologies for being brief, any perceived harshness in my statements is not meant, but stems from Needing Sleep Very Soon. I also know that it'll all much easier said than done. :-(
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Date: 2006-11-19 10:17 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2006-11-19 11:48 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2006-11-19 05:47 pm (UTC)From:How strange! I was in Spain last week, at a conference, eating lots of company-food, and there were chocolate croissants... were you at TechEd: IT Forum (http://www.mseventseurope.com/TechEd/06/pre/defaultitf.aspx)? Or do chocolate croissants exist in other spanish conferences?
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Date: 2006-11-19 06:36 pm (UTC)From: