Am never going to be a real girl.

[chess]

Was meant to sort everything I would need to sort out in the next twelve weeks or so today.

Didn't. Played Baldur's Gate and felt sorry for myself instead.

Need to hang washing up. Should have tidied room. Need to pack for training weekend. Should have faffed in the general direction of 'do I need any more stuff for Maelstrom'. Need to find something to eat this evening at around 5:30pm. Should have properly finished washing and sorted out what clothes I have. Need to drink more water. Should not suck quite so much at this life thing any more, dammit.

Um. Also I ate cake for lunch, because I am a FAT BASTARD. And there's decomposing stuff all over the floor. And I have terrible cravings for fresh fruit and veg, but am welded to the computer screen and Ought To Pack And Tidy And Run Around. Ugh.

Comments

[rjw76]

Ooh, are you Maelstromming? Which group are you with? What are you playing? Squee!

Re: Am never going to be a real girl., would you want to be? Being a girl who wears lizard makeup and hits things with swords is so much more fun...

[chess]

It would be nice to be the kind of girl who can do some laundry without dissolving into fits of self-pitying tears, though.

I'm planning to go as a Dryad with the Snakes, because when I mentioned wanting to be a Dryad the pirates on channel went um and ah whereas the snakes said 'yay'. My complete faliure at logistics (I have, um, a sleeping bag) and the way that it means my first week of full-time employment is bookended by Really Tiring Things means that it's rather contributing to my nervous breakdown more than being something to look forwards to, though.

[darnn.livejournal.com]

Screw laundry. These are manifestations of your intrinsical humanity, which is so much better than being a girl.

[rochvelleth.livejournal.com]

You sound like you need *hugs* And just remember how fantastically you did in exams and stuff. See? You totally rock, no matter how Ought To Do stuff you haven't quite got round to :)

[ilanin.livejournal.com]

No, you will never be a "real girl" in the manner you describe. But you don't really want to be, either, so why are you worried?

And the only vital life skill you're missing is the ability to laugh at your own incompetence without it damaging your self-esteem.

We would all like to be more competent at life. None of us are. You should work on the whole acceptance thing.

Until then, *hugs*

[passage.livejournal.com]

Have I metion how good Livejournal is at indiscriminate affirmation?

[leisaie.livejournal.com]

Were you in London today (fourth July)?! I saw someone who looks exactly like you.

[chess]

Not in London. It isn't a holiday here.