The terrible, terrible angst.

[chess]

My head is made of lead. Also I forgot to pick up my prescriptions whilst in town. I am terrified that I shall never see my poor little car again, because they were meant to be looking at it for an hour starting from 9:30am and then ringing me, and they haven't. I checked the phone number several times but I can't help but worry that I transposed a digit or something; but I don't want to be pushy (and I don't want to have to walk back across town and collect it right now because I feel very dead).

I haven't felt properly alive since the weekend; I'm not sure whether I actually have some kind of illness or whether it is just the crushing weight of stress. At the weekend I ran a Nobilis game which I think should be the last RPG I ever run because they're not worth the stress; I lost points for running away and going to sleep for a couple of hours in the middle of Sunday. Then on Monday because I had lost my Psion I spent an hour in a doctors' waiting room (I'd got the time of my appointment wrong). Yesterday I attempted to take my car to the nice Cambridge Vehicle Services people and failed because I had an address which was seven years out of date for them (yet still the top hit on Google).

Hence today I had to get up really early to get my car to them, and the freezing cold wind almost killed me on the way back (I also forgot to get a hat; I need a hat so I don't get such awful headaches from the wind, and I left my hat in a church in Lincolnshire). I have also lost another glove and possibly another two on top of that, leaving me with one mismatched pair with a hole in the side of one.

I am not very good at life and suspect I am going to fail it. I hope I have some kind of illness which will go away, because currently I am good for nothing.

Comments

[joysilence.livejournal.com]

Well if it's any help I found University Life to be much much harder and more stressful than Life proper. Life proper was boring but at least you get time to just sit staring into the distance occasionally. I'm sure that you will find things getting easier and not harder as time goes by.

[cartesiandaemon.livejournal.com]

*hug*

Look on the bright side, we all lose at life in the end. Feel any better?

[chess]

Speak for yourself :).

[cartesiandaemon.livejournal.com]

LOL. See? I knew that'd make you feel better :)

Though wouldn't it be more like "Daddy! Can we play Heaven now?" "No son, play life first. If you play well together maybe we'll play Heaven later." :)

[koryne-is-me.livejournal.com]

*Huggles*
Hope you're feeling better soon.

[ahsu.livejournal.com]

I second the comment that "Real Life" is easier than college. College is really stressful without any good support systems, and stuff gets demanded of you that Real Life isn't interested in. Survive the U and you'll probably do just fine in Real Life.