Gosh, no use for my rant icon until today and then twice in one day. Aren't we doing well.

[chess]

Because I appear to be unable to extact myself from the computer, I will now rant a little.

I need to have a shower and to wash my clothes. But my laundry card hates me, and I didn't have long enough to sort it out this morning. And I have no motiviation for faff. So I will continue to stink tomorrow. My room is also a complete and utter refuse heap, although at least I got around to sticking the bin out so it no longer features rotting ham. This is a public service announcement on behalf of the Really Fed Up Chessypig party.

I'm mostly fed up wtih Not Being Able to Get On And Do Stuff. I spent from 1pm to 5pm today working on Java Tick 5, which left me thoroughly demotivated. I have mountains of stuff to do which is just piling up because spodding is so much easier. And I have no clean t-shirts and it's really beginning to get on my nerves, but I'm now far too tired to drag washing around, and I know I won't do anything useful in the morning even though I don't have anything to do until noon so you'd think I'd have the time to be marginally productive, although actually if I have any time tomorrow morning I need to a) go to the doctors and get my prescription, which I will undoubtedly forget to do, and it will be wrong because I coudln't remember all the details, and b) get into town and finish this horrible Java tick so I can hand it in and stand a fighting chance of keeping up with them.

Gah. I hate living like this, but I don't have the energy to do any better.

Comments

[severance.livejournal.com]

::offers you a hug, if it's wanted::

I get into states like that all the time. And sometimes it seems that the harder you fight, the further down you go. I know what I'm about to say sounds obvious, and I genuinely don't mean to patronise you, but what I tend to do is choose one thing to do on a particular day ('tomorrow I will do my laundry, and if I do my laundry, I will consider it a productive day') and when I've done that thing, do something to reward myself. Just a small thing, like buying something cool that I don't actually need, or buying a sandwich instead of making my own. (I don't know what usually makes you happy, but buying stuff works for me.) Then whatever else you accomplish in a day will be over and above what you set out to do. Even if you have mountains of things to do, do them one at a time over several days or choose one thing to do in the morning and one in the afternoon, and keep up the rewards to match.

I know it sounds really inane and stupid, and probably not much help. But, it wasn't until someone suggested it to me that I realised I had never actually done it. It might not make the underlying problem go away, but it sometimes helps me on a practical level, just to get through the days. (Some days I do need the help.)

Feel free to tell me to bog off if I'm spouting insulting nonsense; I don't want to make you feel worse!

[chess]

I did try that (except without the reward bit, because I'm already too greedy / spend too much time online), but the problem was I'd just not managed to keep up with the schedule I set for this week.

This is probably to do with the way I spent nearly 36 hours awake over the weekend, and my period was due, and so forth. I imagine I'll get back up when my body stops hating me quite so much.

[severance.livejournal.com]

Bah. One's body really ought to stay out of such matters. Mine has likewise decided that since I just started the pill it's going to throw hormones at me without warning. No clues, helpful or otherwise, on how to deal with that, sadly.

Well, I hope things even out and get better. Take care of yourself in the meantime. ::makes you some tea::

[edith-the-hutt.livejournal.com]

Somehow this seems appropriate.

[dr-vannacutt.livejournal.com]

Good luck

I know how that feels. and doing 2 assignments in one night at 5am with no sleep 2 weeks after the deadline isnt fun.

Take care