Today I am mostly Ill

I came out with the Ill this morning so have spent today feeling sorry for myself. Unfortunately now I don't know which bits are Ill and which bits are Sitting Around All Day.

Also I feel like going 'wah give up on life' still. Being ill is a good excuse. I am worried that I might be making myself ill by wanting to be ill so I have an excuse not to do anything.

I tried to write one of the NYR fics, but it turned out at 573 words and is *finished*, dammit. I'm not sure what to do about this.