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Right. I've had twelve hours sleep and washed my hair, so technically I should be feeling better about now. Instead, it looks like I've managed to be depressed for no good reason. This annoys me, because it means I have no idea what to do to stop being depressed. I didn't know whether to bother posting or not, because I don't want to encourage other people to whine, I don't like whining, and I know how annoying it is when people whine about being depressed and can't tell you why, because of there being nothing you can do about it. Still, I thought people had ought to know that I'm not wandering around looking miserable and irritated through any fault of theirs.

It doesn't help that I feel that everything would be much improved were I to be suddenly and unexpectedly dead about now.

Gah. I feel kind of selfish actually posting this rubbish, but I may as well. Oh, and I discovered I *do* have a maths supervision today, and one of the questions I can't get online, and the one I can doesn't look very answerable, and I need the Probability notes that aren't online to answer my CS supervision question. Unsurprisingly, none of this has helped much.

Mostly, I feel helpless and incapable of doing anything right; people need more of me than I have to give.

./~ we were perfect when we started ~\.

Never thought I'd say this, but I feel a lot better after my maths supervision. You see, I'm comprehensively awful at maths, but I do understand stuff, and if I ever did any work I'd be tolerably good; also, maths that's understandable is tremendously relaxing.

I apologise for whining at you all in exactly the same manner I've been known to tell other people off for.

Now, I wonder if I can get around to doing some work at some point... it appears that I get subconsciously stressed about not having done any work even if I'm not consciously bothered by it.