Well, I just made some webpages at
this place, and links without text don't show up the way I tried to do this mostly to avoid making a LJ entry. I mean, the weekend in Paris was cool, I was up every night until midnight playing cards and won games vs my dad consistantly for the first time, my parents are *majorly* cool and I don't think I'd change my family even if I could, we saw lots of stuff, amusing stuff happened like most of the museums being closed 'cos of a strike and our hotel being in the red light district, but I just can't seem to sit down and write it all up. It almost seems to take something out of it, especially as it was a primarily visual experience - text can't give much more than a boring log of events. So, apologies for not sharing.
In other news, I got really down and so on and so forth when we did a bible study thing on the holiday and it was 'what work should you be doing for the Lord' *again* - I don't *know*, if I did I'd be doing it, and I feel I don't do enough. So I cried a lot and my parents tried to encourage me (did I mention how great they are?) but it was obvious I wasn't having any of it. Eventually I felt a bit better just 'cos I can't maintain any kind of mood for that long, and went to have a bath, but started feeling down again and couldn't sing (which normally cheers me up) for crying, so I thought 'that's *enough*', and I prayed about it, prayed forcefully and told this particular demon of mine (the 'what should I be doing more, I'm not good enough, I'm no good' one) to get lost in the name of Jesus, and then I felt an awful lot better and haven't gone downhill again yet.
And on the second edit, I decided this was far too long to exist without a cut... so beyond here is a fairly long description of a dream and some random comments about this entry.
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