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Today, I keep oscellating (now I *really* can't spell that word) between bouncy and really tired. This is beginning to annoy me, especially since the only things I could do to let off my energy are annoying boring things like help with housework and being on the computer talking to people is making me alternately want to leap out of my chair and dance around the room or collapse. Grr.

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Ick. I'm angry, and upset, and thorougly messed up, and I was going out tonight and now I can't 'cos I'll just cry and be embarrassed. I can't post here why 'cos the ppl involved might not want me to, and I really don't want to make things worse. I just wish that people weren't so wretchedly complicated, and that I didn't take everything far, far too seriously (and try to take responsibility upon myself for things I have no control over). I can't be happy 'cos I feel guilty that other people are not, and I feel guilty for writing depressed things 'cos other ppl have better reasons, and I really wanted to go to my church youthgroup tonight (which made me try to put off thinking about this, which just made everything worse). Grr.