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Today I am mostly a miserable, whining loser.
It appears I'm incapable of getting presents, organising a simple trip to a cinema, buying and cooking myself a decent tea and washing up on time, sorting out washing that's already washed and dried, posting Christmas cards and getting ready to go to a cell group social without disolving into pools of tears.
I sincerely hope I have a cold coming or something, because otherwise I have absolutely no excuse for this pathetic behaviour.
Why do I always project all these expectations of my behaviour onto my parents, and then get angry with myself and miserable at them when I fail to live up to them, when all they want is for me to stop being such a misery, and perhaps be able to organise my way out of a paper bag from time to time?
I should, like, tidy my room up and make better plans for tomorrow, but I don't seem to be capable of doing anything without crying again, and I need to look happy and normal by 8pm...
It appears I'm incapable of getting presents, organising a simple trip to a cinema, buying and cooking myself a decent tea and washing up on time, sorting out washing that's already washed and dried, posting Christmas cards and getting ready to go to a cell group social without disolving into pools of tears.
I sincerely hope I have a cold coming or something, because otherwise I have absolutely no excuse for this pathetic behaviour.
Why do I always project all these expectations of my behaviour onto my parents, and then get angry with myself and miserable at them when I fail to live up to them, when all they want is for me to stop being such a misery, and perhaps be able to organise my way out of a paper bag from time to time?
I should, like, tidy my room up and make better plans for tomorrow, but I don't seem to be capable of doing anything without crying again, and I need to look happy and normal by 8pm...
