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Yesterday morning I saved the life of a snail. It was trying to climb into the drainage channel thingamy on the Cressing station platform, where snails regularly get stuck and dry out in the sun. I got it to crawl onto a leaf and put the leaf back in the hedgerow. I also killed several dozen spidermites that afternoon/evening, because there were hundreds and hundreds of them at the other end of the platform and it was practically impossible not to tread on loads. I also got some kind of wood resin all over my hands - it was this little patch on the gate that looked like crystalized honey, and when I pressed it this honey-colour liquid came out, and when I smelled it, it smelled of pine resin (although I don't think the wood is pine, I just think that's the only kind of resin I know the smell of). Odd how it came out of the old gate now, if that's where it came from.

I'm in a rather drifty mood atm. Doing the day-to-day things better, but... not quite there. Not quite real. Going through the motions of life. Waiting - passively. There's nothing wrong with waiting actively. But I am doing nothing - going nowhere - everywhere in the secular world, I could go, but nowhere that is personally satisfying. Just drifting through life. Doing this stupid Haylar webcomic, writing Stupid Harry Potter Mary Sue Fic (but *my* Mary Sue is a Slytherin. so there.), coding my RPG-thingamy, three games now on Rondak's Portal, two pages (of 25) at least of LJ-friends'-posts a day, all kinds of busy make-work to disguise the fact I'm desperately wasting my life right now.

Then again, I suspect there are very few people who could say that they are truly not wasting their life.

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Currently, every page of Yahoo Mail makes Opera spit three errors at me. I could banish that dialog box forever, but sometimes I *want* to know when the script on the page has screwed up. Telling it to stop running scripts on the page stops everything from working. Wonderful.

Over the last couple of nights I've made quite a bit more progress on 'Kali', my random RPG thingamy. Now I can get it to show a certain bit of the map to start with, and you can move Kali around the map. I'm working on the scrolling code atm (it *should* spit out another bit of map for the screen, re-centering you, whenever you get within two tiles of the edge. currently it does this, and reverts back to the old map when you move next. prolly I'll figure it out when I quit procrastinating with LJ and get on with it, though.)

'is' is *not* equivalent to '=='. I still can't quite work out how or why, or why it worked for the 'esc' key with the 'is' statement and not any of the other keys... but as this is my first major solo Python project, I shouldn't be surprised at finding random bits I don't understand really.

Anyway, that was your random techie-type updateness for today.

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./~20,000 miles to an oasis
20,000 years will I burn
20,000 chances I wasted
Waiting for the moment to turn
I would give my life to find it
I would give it all
Catch me if I fall

Walking through the woods I have faced it
Looking for something to learn
30,000 thoughts have replaced it,
Never in my time to return
I would give my life to find it
I would give it all
Catch me if I fall
All alone
Waiting to fall

40,000 stars in the evening
Look at them fall from the sky
40,000 reasons for living
40,000 tears in your eye

I would give my life to find it
I would give it all
Catch me if I fall
Catch me if I fall
Catch me if I fall
Catch me if I fall
Catch me if I fall
Catch me if I fall
Catch me if I fall
Catch me if I fall
Catch me if I fall
Catch me if I fall ~\.

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New Haylar is up. Apologies for the even worse episode title than usual. Will maybe think of a better one later.

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This is *not* a good mood to be going to CH in. I don't want to keep crying pointlessly about things that I never get around to solving anyway! *growls*

I was thinking of locking this post, but in that case I'd probably better go back and lock that other one, and I'm not entirely sure I can be bothered.

./~Look what I've done
This picture I've painted
It looks like my heart
Or what still remains

Convinced of the weight
Your interpretations
Are not what I see
I wish they could be

I remember it much redder
I remember it much brighter

Can you stay for a while
Try to imagine this
Could you be for a while
I can't remember it
Could you fall for a while
I can't escape from this

I'll try to explain
The way that the frame
Doesn't quite fit the image
Or surround the edge

I remember it much redder
I remember it much brighter

Calling, crying, ashamed of what I am not
Really failing, falling into this cage and I can't escape
I can't escape

Look what I've done
This picture I've painted
Doesn't quite fit
Or surround the edge
I remember it much redder

I can't escape, I can't escape, I can't escape ~\.

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Gah, that 'misery' face is getting quite a good workout tonight.