Nonono, *I'm* useless
Jun. 15th, 2001 08:53 amI *keep* having rows with my mother over not having done stuff. I *know* it's just basic stuff I really ought to do and it oughtn't be difficult to remember, and it's just looking-after-myself stuff, but I just don't seem to be able to sort it out. It's been suggested that I make lists of stuff to do, but I don't want to do that, and I've been trying to work out why. I think it's because I don't want to become reliant on them... in the past I've always eventually managed to incorparate the stuff I need to do into my routine eventually and get it done, so even though it doesn't seem to be happening making lists seems like giving up, and I'd want it to be only a temporary measure if I had to do it at all.
I also feel that I would get this stuff done eventually, often enough anyway, if I wasn't expected to stick to a regular timetable - but I know I probably wouldn't, it just seems easier that way because it means I don't have to do as much stuff.
Grr. I just want to be a lazy idle toad. Is that too much to ask? (Obviously it is - especially when my poor mother feels obliged to run around picking up the pieces.)
I also feel that I would get this stuff done eventually, often enough anyway, if I wasn't expected to stick to a regular timetable - but I know I probably wouldn't, it just seems easier that way because it means I don't have to do as much stuff.
Grr. I just want to be a lazy idle toad. Is that too much to ask? (Obviously it is - especially when my poor mother feels obliged to run around picking up the pieces.)