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I really should write this sometimes when I'm happy, shouldn't I?
The thing is, if I'm happy it's normally 'cos I'm doing something cool. Like last night, when we had one of my church's elders and his wife come to ours for tea, and we just talked lots about all kinds of stuff, mainly their jobs (he's a schools-inspector type person and she's a teacher) and hence my school and my parents' experiences of education, and then we all suddenly realised it was 11pm and they were meant to be off to let their childminder get some rest!
I'm kind of blank again today tho; I had far too much homework to do over the weekend, and I've done it all now, and now I'm on 4 talkers but I'm still only having one conversation. I've been a bit disappointed with myself on talkers after Sath came round and I saw how many ppl were talking to her; I'm sure if I was a bit more friendly and approachable I'd have more ppl to talk to, but then again I wouldn't have time to write all this random wibbling either...
Despite not really having anything to do here (well, I'm talking to Chezzie, on and off) I'm still annoyed when my mother suggests a walk; I'm sure I like walking, it was filed in 'things I like' quite a while ago, but it feels like a chore now, especially walking with my parents. I want to be online 'cos that's' filed in 'relaxing', and I need to relax after doing all that homework. Then again, most of the homework was stuff I *should* like doing, if I didn't *have* to do it... yeesh, I'm confused.
What I really want ATM is to go to a spodmeet, after Sath seemed to have so much fun at the SP one. But I'm not going to be allowed to travel on my own and my parents prolly won't want to ferry me around too far, and I'm not even sure if my parents will trust me with just Sath with me (which seems to be the main option). I'm sure there won't be an appropriate one organised for ages and ages, tho.
I just complained to my mother about my odd mood and she said 'You're just being a normal teenager' - I guess I am, really. Everything seems a drag, and I don't know what to do with myself, and I can't settle to anything. I really, really need to get on with writing, but I can't even do any productive writing (hence me writing this), which is probably a big contributory factor why I can't settle to anything, 'cos I'm meant to be settling to that, but I just can't get started, and I don't think I'd be able to write more than a few words anyway, and for some reason I want to try and don't want to at the same time...
The thing is, if I'm happy it's normally 'cos I'm doing something cool. Like last night, when we had one of my church's elders and his wife come to ours for tea, and we just talked lots about all kinds of stuff, mainly their jobs (he's a schools-inspector type person and she's a teacher) and hence my school and my parents' experiences of education, and then we all suddenly realised it was 11pm and they were meant to be off to let their childminder get some rest!
I'm kind of blank again today tho; I had far too much homework to do over the weekend, and I've done it all now, and now I'm on 4 talkers but I'm still only having one conversation. I've been a bit disappointed with myself on talkers after Sath came round and I saw how many ppl were talking to her; I'm sure if I was a bit more friendly and approachable I'd have more ppl to talk to, but then again I wouldn't have time to write all this random wibbling either...
Despite not really having anything to do here (well, I'm talking to Chezzie, on and off) I'm still annoyed when my mother suggests a walk; I'm sure I like walking, it was filed in 'things I like' quite a while ago, but it feels like a chore now, especially walking with my parents. I want to be online 'cos that's' filed in 'relaxing', and I need to relax after doing all that homework. Then again, most of the homework was stuff I *should* like doing, if I didn't *have* to do it... yeesh, I'm confused.
What I really want ATM is to go to a spodmeet, after Sath seemed to have so much fun at the SP one. But I'm not going to be allowed to travel on my own and my parents prolly won't want to ferry me around too far, and I'm not even sure if my parents will trust me with just Sath with me (which seems to be the main option). I'm sure there won't be an appropriate one organised for ages and ages, tho.
I just complained to my mother about my odd mood and she said 'You're just being a normal teenager' - I guess I am, really. Everything seems a drag, and I don't know what to do with myself, and I can't settle to anything. I really, really need to get on with writing, but I can't even do any productive writing (hence me writing this), which is probably a big contributory factor why I can't settle to anything, 'cos I'm meant to be settling to that, but I just can't get started, and I don't think I'd be able to write more than a few words anyway, and for some reason I want to try and don't want to at the same time...
