Unusual Things

[chess]

Supposedly I've been tagged by stephenpthomas to say six unusual things about myself. Um.

1) I spent the last weekend pretending to be an animate tree. This is a fairly regular occurance. (I am always wary about writing up Maelstrom as people are likely to bounce around yelling "foip" at me. Suffice to say that the event was busy and had its moments, and was more consistantly good than last event, but my general depression seeped in around the edges to make it less enjoyable than it could have been.)

2) I enjoy and pursue feelings of total, final, empty, hopeless despair, that quiet place beyond tears and anger, although I suspect that if it was actually happening to me as me rather than me as a subpersonality I would not enjoy it.

3) I also enjoy hurting (particularly causing physical pain to, but emotional pain also works, it's just I tend to feel guiltier about it) people / animals / anything I can be sure is feeling it (and just watching them experience pain); thankfully for people around me, my metaphysics contains an omniscient God who gets unhappy if I do that kind of thing without permission.

4) I still haven't been convinced that I have not, in fact, already completed all of the things I was put in this world to do, and that I will never do anything actively beneficial to the life of the world ever again.

5) When I am in character as someone else I tend to completely ignore my own physiological indicators, which means I'm quite prone to suddenly collapsing of dehydration / starvation / having carried heavy things / having run around when actually quite dead. I find it quite easy to background pain, but try not to do it too often because I am very afraid of permanently damaging myself (although an awful lot less than I used to be, because I used to be convinced I would do something useful in the future, and needed to save myself for it, and now I am not).

6) My fundamental personal morality, such as I have one, seems to be based around the premise that information should be free. I generally view privacy as a Bad Thing and have not yet been presented with an argument in favour of privacy which does not highlight some aspect of society or the human condition which is the thing which appears to me as bad and requiring change in the situation rather than allowing people to hide things. This opinion does not seem to be widely held.

I'm sure some of these are things that technically should not be said in public entries where future employers can read them, but, um, see point 6).

Comments

[dreamfracture.livejournal.com]

You are stark raving bonkers, and it's me saying this.

[chess]

I know, but all of the mental health professionals I've spoken to have basically said "there's nothing we can do about this, it doesn't look like you're actually going to kill anyone, so goodbye and have fun".

[nwhyte]

I wouldn't worry, just go for employers who don't care about #6!

[naath.livejournal.com]

There needs to be privacy. People need to have space where they don't get badgered so that they can have not-being-badgered time.

[chess]

Privacy, as in nobody knows what you are doing/thinking, and not being interrupted, as in not getting badgered, are different things.

[ktx.livejournal.com]

Hello, I friended you. You went to my school. I am not a freak. Promise.

[chess]

Hello. I haven't friended you, because my friends list is hugely out of control and I barely have enough time to read it as it is. I am a freak. Promise.

[douglas-reay.livejournal.com]

The best argument I know in favour of privacy is that it enables subversion and corruption.

Specifically, privacy is what lets two weak groups of people conspire to over throw a single stronger group.

Without privacy it is too easy for the strong group to stomp on ring leaders while their plans are still at the questioning stage.

Douglas