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[chess]

I just wish I knew why I felt so desperately miserable; yesterday and today. It's beautiful and sunny outside, and I want to go for a walk (because it'll make my parents happy too), but I'm afraid of going, because it will leave me alone with myself again and I'll not even have anything to distract myself from it.

Maybe I'll clean my shoes instead, from when I went walking last time in the wrong shoes (and had to come back after twenty minutes because I was just getting more and more miserable and despondant about life in general).

I'm not in any way likely to act upon it, but I would really quite like to die at the moment, because then I wouldn't have to live through any more of this misery-I-have-no-idea-of-the-cause-of.

Also, my internet is hopelessly broken (it comes back up occasionally, for about thirty seconds, then dies again), so I can't even talk to anybody, or randomly poke at websites (or even reliably check my mail). I've done some maths, but now I'm stuck, and I've distracted myself with computer games, which makes me feel better at the time, and worse afterwards. I probably need to wash my hair too, but I certainly don't have the motivation for that. Tomorrow I'll go into town and look for shoes and try not to cry too much in public.

Comments

Hugs.

[dr-vannacutt.livejournal.com]

What shoes you going to get? Army boots? Trainers? Moon boots? ;-)

Internet brokenness is bad. Dig out an old modem and get on like that just to take the edge off of the withdrawal.

And if all else fails. Fassion a maul by tying a big rock (or lump of concreat) onto a big stick (or chair leg) and then smash an old door (or something else smashable) it really makes me and alot of people i know feel alot better... also a sledg hammer and furnature like desks and stools and stuff is very good.

Take care. ;-)

[beckyc.livejournal.com]

I wish there was a magic wand for "feeling miserable with no cause" moods. I combat them by keeping very busy and doing lots of very vigorous physical exercise like swimming/karate - walking, as you say, allows too much introspection.

[(Anonymous)]

{{{{chess}}}}

Jack.

[enismirdal.livejournal.com]

Awwww! *enters room holding fluffy Feanáro the wizard teddy and offers to chess* Have a hug! *hugs*

Tea is a good option when feeling depressed, or sometimes orange juice. Also, watching a silly feel-good movie (e.g. Four Weddings or But I'm A Cheerleader).

Or buy some flowers. Flowers are pretty. I like blue irises :)

*hugs again*

[emperor]

WSS. Tea good. I also find music good, but YMMV.

*hug*

[jarel.livejournal.com]

I hate to say it (because it's wonderful music), but the soundtrack may not be helping. I'm fairly content, as a rule, but listening to tracks from that album can certainly leave me feeling less than chirpy ;)

[chess]

The soundtrack is purely internal; I rarely actually have any music *on*, but plenty in my head.

[passage.livejournal.com]

Try putting some music on to dislodge the unhelpful music in your head?

(Of course you might think it symptom instead of cause but I think the intersection may be non-empty here).