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28th Nov
I found a shiny! My nana gave me it - a shiny new 2001 5p piece!
So I put it in the charity envelope. They won't really notice my shiny, or notice how shiny it is, but it made me feel shiny, and moods are one of those things you can give away without losing, and so are more important that shinies you have to lose to give.
But my shiny mood didn't last, 'cos I got bitten by the Uselessness Bug again. Grr. Why won't it just go away? Sure, I could be doing thisthisandthis, but I wouldn't do thisthisandthis very well but those are just excuses...grr. Mother said that it was better to just live in world for God like I'm doing already 'cos Paul in bible says to go and earn living instead of just holy-huddling and ppl often critised for not doing stuff I do by default (tell ppl you're Christian if asked, tell about going to church if asked what did on weekend, have nonchristian friends (could do with some christian ones but ohwell) etc) but I just feel that everyone says about dedicating all your time to God and I dedicate most of my time to schoolwork and net stuff, and the God bits get squished out. Grr.
./~ Some people say that each day's one step closer to death
I say that each day is just one step closer to life
To understanding and everything being alright
So in conclusion have I made my decision clear
With every passing moment of my life this year
Well not exactly so that's what I'm doing here
...
How do you break a habit formed in your mind?
...take the shells from your eyes
Then enjoy life and maybe even relax, even relax... ~\.
Song in my head this morning - One Step Closer to Life, by mxpx. Good songy. Yayness.
So much for the 'relax' part tho, I'm suddenly informed I have some computer graphics to produce by, uh, last week, and we have an unscheduled meeting tonight I prolly can't make again 'cos we're going out... and tommorrow I might have more unscheduledness. Ahhh, life. *grins*
And I've got precisely the wrong files on my Psion and accessible through school computers - want them to be the other way round... (ie ones on Talia on school network + vice versa). Still not unhappyifying tho.
I found a shiny! My nana gave me it - a shiny new 2001 5p piece!
So I put it in the charity envelope. They won't really notice my shiny, or notice how shiny it is, but it made me feel shiny, and moods are one of those things you can give away without losing, and so are more important that shinies you have to lose to give.
But my shiny mood didn't last, 'cos I got bitten by the Uselessness Bug again. Grr. Why won't it just go away? Sure, I could be doing thisthisandthis, but I wouldn't do thisthisandthis very well but those are just excuses...grr. Mother said that it was better to just live in world for God like I'm doing already 'cos Paul in bible says to go and earn living instead of just holy-huddling and ppl often critised for not doing stuff I do by default (tell ppl you're Christian if asked, tell about going to church if asked what did on weekend, have nonchristian friends (could do with some christian ones but ohwell) etc) but I just feel that everyone says about dedicating all your time to God and I dedicate most of my time to schoolwork and net stuff, and the God bits get squished out. Grr.
./~ Some people say that each day's one step closer to death
I say that each day is just one step closer to life
To understanding and everything being alright
So in conclusion have I made my decision clear
With every passing moment of my life this year
Well not exactly so that's what I'm doing here
...
How do you break a habit formed in your mind?
...take the shells from your eyes
Then enjoy life and maybe even relax, even relax... ~\.
Song in my head this morning - One Step Closer to Life, by mxpx. Good songy. Yayness.
So much for the 'relax' part tho, I'm suddenly informed I have some computer graphics to produce by, uh, last week, and we have an unscheduled meeting tonight I prolly can't make again 'cos we're going out... and tommorrow I might have more unscheduledness. Ahhh, life. *grins*
And I've got precisely the wrong files on my Psion and accessible through school computers - want them to be the other way round... (ie ones on Talia on school network + vice versa). Still not unhappyifying tho.